This is why I didn't make any lofty promises to "blog every day." I knew there would be times when I wouldn't blog for weeks (perhaps months) at a time. However, since no one else seems to be reading this blog, I guess it doesn't matter too much.
Oh well . . .
Today my three-year-old son was watching me race through the house like a mad woman, and he asked, "Mom, where are you going?"
I replied, "Crazy. Wanna come with?"
That about sums up my life right now! I often find myself wondering, will things ever get any easier? Will I ever be able to work completely from home? Will I ever be able to have all the laundry done AND folded AND not have a load of dirty laundry left to do? Will my house ever be so clean that I will not be in a state of panic two weeks before my mom comes to visit? (Which, by the way, is the main reason that I was racing through the house today!)
Then I needed to take an internal look at my life. When was the last time my prayers were real? When was the last time my conversation with God was not interupted? When was the last time that my focus during prayer was on prayer, not on my day's to do list? When was the last time that I had truly listened. . . just listened to God.
I find that my soul is longing for a quiet time with God. Quiet, uninteruppted time with my Savior. Not just a few moments here or there, but REALLY focused on time with Him.
My schedule will not get any lighter; my laundry will alwasy be there for me to fold or wash or put away; my children will always be awake well before their intended hour. So when will this quiet time come?
I find myself longing as David did, and I find myself realizing that David knew what he was doing when he spent time with God "in the morning."
God, help me to find the discipline to meet with you in the morning, as David did, ready and willing and still. . . .
Monday, July 31, 2006
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
A much happier mood
Well, it has been a while since I posted anything, which is the main reason I didn't begin blogging with the lofty goal of "blogging every day."
Life has been busy with two little boys, a husband, and a job. On top of all that, I am starting to do some freelance writing and editing at home. Maybe someday I can build up enough freelance work so that I can stay home with the boys. Who knows . . .
Anyway, I just wanted to drop a line, partly becuase I don't want to get out of the habit for recording stuff on my site, but also because I am trying to build more self-discipline. This is a good step in the right direction , I guess.
Life has been busy with two little boys, a husband, and a job. On top of all that, I am starting to do some freelance writing and editing at home. Maybe someday I can build up enough freelance work so that I can stay home with the boys. Who knows . . .
Anyway, I just wanted to drop a line, partly becuase I don't want to get out of the habit for recording stuff on my site, but also because I am trying to build more self-discipline. This is a good step in the right direction , I guess.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Meloncholy Mood
I don't even know where to begin this blog today. It has been a frustrating week, and it is only Tuesday!
First of all, the GARBC is having its annual conference this week. There are some major issues that need to be hashed out, and unfortunately, there are passionate people on both sides. I fear for this body of churches. I have found myself praying for God to work in hearts, because honestly, many hearts need to change. (Yeah, I know, I need to work on some stuff myself too.)
I can't even begin to understand the "Cedarville issue," so I won't even begin to try to explain it. There are many other people who are far more competent to explain that topic. However, I personally believe there are deeper issues that are under the surface.
Anyway, there are other issues that I have dealt with this week as well. A woman whom I highly respected from my former church went to be with the Lord on Sunday. My heart goes out to the family and to her many friends. Wilma will be dearly missed, yet I know that she is with her Savior. For that, I am grateful.
So where does this leave me tonight? I am in a meloncholy mood, which is normally not me. As I wait for more news from my friends at the conference, I find myself praying for the people involved. But, God, help me pray with an open heart, and not with a self-centered pious attitude.
First of all, the GARBC is having its annual conference this week. There are some major issues that need to be hashed out, and unfortunately, there are passionate people on both sides. I fear for this body of churches. I have found myself praying for God to work in hearts, because honestly, many hearts need to change. (Yeah, I know, I need to work on some stuff myself too.)
I can't even begin to understand the "Cedarville issue," so I won't even begin to try to explain it. There are many other people who are far more competent to explain that topic. However, I personally believe there are deeper issues that are under the surface.
Anyway, there are other issues that I have dealt with this week as well. A woman whom I highly respected from my former church went to be with the Lord on Sunday. My heart goes out to the family and to her many friends. Wilma will be dearly missed, yet I know that she is with her Savior. For that, I am grateful.
So where does this leave me tonight? I am in a meloncholy mood, which is normally not me. As I wait for more news from my friends at the conference, I find myself praying for the people involved. But, God, help me pray with an open heart, and not with a self-centered pious attitude.
Monday, June 12, 2006
Chris is gone
Chris Kealen passed away this morning, just after 7 a.m.
What can I say to this?
What do I say to Kent, who has lost his companion, his wife, his lover, his rock?
What can I say to Rachel, who will bury her mother on Friday and marry Brock on Saturday?
What do I say to Adam and Elizabeth, still new to marraige, yet facing the struggle of losing a mother and a mother-in-law?
God above, Father of all comfort, be Yourself and all that You are to Kent, Adam, Rachel, Elizabeth, and Brock. Tonight, let them experience You . . . nothing more, nothing less. Wrap Your heavenly comfort around their souls. Touch them in a real way. Reveal Yourself to them at this time when they are most vulnerable to see You. And, God, help them to recognize that Your love and plans for them go far beyond this mortal world. Give them heavenly vision to see that there is so much more in store.
As for the rest of us who were touched by this very special woman, grant us the wisdom, love, and patience to fight as she fought, and to win the battles that we face. For, dear Father, though some might say that Chris lost this battle, she really didn't. She won the battle, dear Lord. And now, she is able to stand in victory over her pain, over her suffering. She is complete in You, just as You created her to be. She has finally won.
What can I say to this?
What do I say to Kent, who has lost his companion, his wife, his lover, his rock?
What can I say to Rachel, who will bury her mother on Friday and marry Brock on Saturday?
What do I say to Adam and Elizabeth, still new to marraige, yet facing the struggle of losing a mother and a mother-in-law?
God above, Father of all comfort, be Yourself and all that You are to Kent, Adam, Rachel, Elizabeth, and Brock. Tonight, let them experience You . . . nothing more, nothing less. Wrap Your heavenly comfort around their souls. Touch them in a real way. Reveal Yourself to them at this time when they are most vulnerable to see You. And, God, help them to recognize that Your love and plans for them go far beyond this mortal world. Give them heavenly vision to see that there is so much more in store.
As for the rest of us who were touched by this very special woman, grant us the wisdom, love, and patience to fight as she fought, and to win the battles that we face. For, dear Father, though some might say that Chris lost this battle, she really didn't. She won the battle, dear Lord. And now, she is able to stand in victory over her pain, over her suffering. She is complete in You, just as You created her to be. She has finally won.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Losing someone you love
We found out this evening that Chris, Nat's cousin, is near the end. Her battle with cancer is almost over; the disease is finally winning. Her body has rejected the donor bone marrow from a recent trnasplant, and the cancer has now completely filled her body.
The doctor met with the immediate family today. He shared with them that there was no hope left for Chris. Because she is so weak, the doctor doesn't believe that she will make it through the weekend.
Her daughter, Rachel, was to get married next Saturday, June 17.
Rachel called the rest of the family and told them that she has decided to get married tomorrow so that her mother won't miss the wedding.
Through her whole battle, Chris has been a rock. She has been so brave, and she has enjoyed life.
As I find myself sitting with my laptop this evening, my thoughts are with her and her family: Kent, Adam, Elizabeth, Rachel. My prayers are with them this evening. As they walk through this valley and face this shadow, I know that God will give them comfort and grace.
The passing of a loved one is truly a sacred, anguishing journey of love.
The doctor met with the immediate family today. He shared with them that there was no hope left for Chris. Because she is so weak, the doctor doesn't believe that she will make it through the weekend.
Her daughter, Rachel, was to get married next Saturday, June 17.
Rachel called the rest of the family and told them that she has decided to get married tomorrow so that her mother won't miss the wedding.
Through her whole battle, Chris has been a rock. She has been so brave, and she has enjoyed life.
As I find myself sitting with my laptop this evening, my thoughts are with her and her family: Kent, Adam, Elizabeth, Rachel. My prayers are with them this evening. As they walk through this valley and face this shadow, I know that God will give them comfort and grace.
The passing of a loved one is truly a sacred, anguishing journey of love.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Going Away for the weekend
Yeah! We are leaving after church this morning to go to Camp Manitoumi! My dad-in-law is the director, so we have full access to everything from the horses to the pool. It is supposed to reach 90 today, so the pool may actually be tolerable, though probably still a bit cold.
Anyhoo, I am especially excited to be able to see my parents, who are also coming to camp. They plan to take Jack back home with them for several days. He is sooooooo excited! "Grandma Donna has a cool train for me!" That is all he has been talking about the past two days! What a riot!
Andrew is sure to be a big hit as well. I know I am prejudice, but I honestly beleive he is one of the cutest and sweetest little guys around. He has a great personality, and he loves to be around people, as long as someone he loves is nearby. He is crawling everywhere already, so I know he will be another go-getter, just like his brother. (sigh) I definitely have my work cut out for me as I try to raise these two!
Anyhoo, I am especially excited to be able to see my parents, who are also coming to camp. They plan to take Jack back home with them for several days. He is sooooooo excited! "Grandma Donna has a cool train for me!" That is all he has been talking about the past two days! What a riot!
Andrew is sure to be a big hit as well. I know I am prejudice, but I honestly beleive he is one of the cutest and sweetest little guys around. He has a great personality, and he loves to be around people, as long as someone he loves is nearby. He is crawling everywhere already, so I know he will be another go-getter, just like his brother. (sigh) I definitely have my work cut out for me as I try to raise these two!
Friday, May 26, 2006
New to the blogging thing
Okay. So here is my feeble attempt at blogging. I hope it will be more than my own ramblings, but I want so much to be able to share what goes on inside of my head.
I am pretty much a dreamer. My mind is usually going a mile a minute, thinking of everything from my deadlines at work to a fabuous idea for a melodramatic novel. (sigh) But who has time to do all of that?
As a mom of two little guys (ages 3 and 8 months), I feel like my life is consumed by them. They are constantly on my mind, and always in my heart. They are truly a joy, and I thank God each and every day for bringing them into my life. Though Nat and I are often exhuasted at the end of the day, we are truly blessed that God has seen fit to give us the privilege of rasising these little guys.
Along with my responsibilities as a wife and a mom, I am an editor at a Christian publishing company. I enjoy my work, especially since I can work part-time from home. However, it does keep my busy. I feel like it leaves little time for me.
So maybe this whole blogging thing will be good for me. I can use it as my stress relief.
Who knows?! I may find that I really enjoy it! :-)
I am pretty much a dreamer. My mind is usually going a mile a minute, thinking of everything from my deadlines at work to a fabuous idea for a melodramatic novel. (sigh) But who has time to do all of that?
As a mom of two little guys (ages 3 and 8 months), I feel like my life is consumed by them. They are constantly on my mind, and always in my heart. They are truly a joy, and I thank God each and every day for bringing them into my life. Though Nat and I are often exhuasted at the end of the day, we are truly blessed that God has seen fit to give us the privilege of rasising these little guys.
Along with my responsibilities as a wife and a mom, I am an editor at a Christian publishing company. I enjoy my work, especially since I can work part-time from home. However, it does keep my busy. I feel like it leaves little time for me.
So maybe this whole blogging thing will be good for me. I can use it as my stress relief.
Who knows?! I may find that I really enjoy it! :-)
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Future of Hope
In an ever-changing world, I am thankful that the hope of my future is in the hands of the almighty. What a comfort to know that His promises hold true from generation to generation. I am truly blessed to be His child.
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